another catching up...

I did this musing a while back after having my bath and held on to it for some time now...afraid I might just loose it on the long run, so I'm keeping it here.....
How did we planned our life together????
OK - have to have more than 1 kid
GROW OLD TOGETHER - DIE TOGETHER
Now....how did we fare???
We had more than 1 kid - got 4 wonderful ones....
We had 30 wonderful years together - halfway through going old together...
BUT ....YOU WENT AHEAD OF ME....we didn't die together........
BUT .... again, If we did die together - that would have been selfish, wouldn't it ???
We had more than 1 kid, and we would have devastated them if I went with you ----- and we might have ruined 4 wonderful lives...NOW -- THAT WOULD REALLY, REALLY BE SELFISH!!! and, that is what we're not, my love,....
We spent our life together for these wonderful,wonderful gift from God - and each and everyone of them made our life complete...and what??? leave them all together ----- NAAAHHHHH.... I didn't think so ...You didn't think that either , or you would have brought me along with you..and God so love us all and that's why He didn't let it be....anyways, don't worry my love, I know you're just there and when the right time is along, then...and only then, will I hold your hand to guide me....YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU...AS I DO YOU.....We'll just hang on to that love for the moment.....while life goes on for Me...mwahmwahmwah!!!!!